Are you at the edge? Need some Hope?
After surviving the hardest move of my life (and I have moved A LOT), I think I can confidently add "professional mover" to my resume. I am finally finished......at least until next month:) I would insert my happy dance if the thought of moving again weren't lingering at the moment. Just being honest;) I have lifted more than I thought I could, I have driven a Uhaul to my daughters surprise, I have learned to be creative with few bungees, and I can even drive a truck pulling a trailer now. Are you as impressed with me, as I am? Ha! I sound like a good Mississippi girl, I suppose;)
With all that I have endured this week (5 days of moving about 12 hours a day)......the Word that spoke to my weary heart was PERSEVERE!
I have told you before that my heart desire is to be settled....to feel like we are home again. We have moved every year for almost five years now due to our home with Chinese Drywall. Moving unsettles me not to mention all that it draws out of me physically. And believe me I have been asking, seeking and knocking.....boldly please Father settle us!
And I look to the words in Luke 11:9
So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives; and he who seeks, finds; and to him who knocks, it will be opened.
We so often choose pieces of the Word to hold onto. We might even cry out when we don't see the fruit of prayer soon enough, because we feel we are aligned to His Will.
Why Father am I still here in this place when I am asking and seeking and knocking desperately?
But when you take the word as a whole you find the TRUTH hidden in it........
For a friend of mine has come to me from a journey, and I have nothing to set before him’; 7 and from inside he answers and says, ‘Do not bother me; the door has already been shut and my children and I are in bed; I cannot get up and give you anything.’ 8 I tell you, even though he will not get up and give him anything because he is his friend, yet because of his PERSISTENCE he will get up and give him as much as he needs.
The moment before He tells us to Ask, Seek and Knock, he shares the story of a man needing bread, and the bread comes with one word.............PERSISTENCE.
And then it reminds me of the words of our friend James.....
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4
There is something about PERSEVERING that works deeply in us to form our character and maturity. A movement closer to who He wants us to be. A pain with purpose. And if you are a mother, you can attest to this:
Do our children appreciate what is easily given?
Does that giving create entitlement?
What happens when we have to work or earn or pray desperately for something? It becomes a treasure:)
I was meeting with a woman last week that is newly showing her pregnant figure. She rubbed her little belly with a glowing smile and said something to the effect......this one is a miracle...six years in the making.
Isn't it so true that those things that we have to get on our knees for become the greatest treasures of our lives? Perhaps, it isn't that He is withholding a blessing, but that your need draws you so close to Him, and that sweet friends is the desire of His heart. It is not that you are alone in time of NEED, but that you are closest when your need is greatest. And He knows that when that NEED dissipates that our nature is to slide just a little away from Him (and for some a lot- being honest), and perhaps, He wants to hold on just a little bit longer right where you are. Right where I am.....Needing Him?
So what do we do here, in this place of great NEED, when we feel like He has taken us to the edge, and some of us want to give up?
We choose to enjoy (consider it pure joy) His arms around us knowing He is close (Psalm 34:18), and we choose to STAND no matter what happens next!
So I'll stand with arms high And heart abandoned In awe of the one who made it all
I'll stand, my soul, Lord, to You surrender All I am is Yours
What happens if we choose to believe that He is good, He is love, and we abandon our hearts and plans to trust His alone?
Could we be a story of Ruth in the making if we choose to hold on just a little longer....just a little tighter?
I choose to STAND! Will you stand with me?
Seek. Love. Follow.
In His Wings, Ro